Trying to hold onto the calm

Heron was getting ready to go to his girlfriend’s house this morning.
He was sitting on the couch facing the window. 
Suddenly he got excited and jumped up and went to the window. 
He told me to be real quiet but come quick. 
I went over, and there was a hawk sitting in my pear tree.

He sat in the tree for several minutes, watching the tiny little birds at my feeder. 
Heron said I had basically set out a birdie buffet, all‑you‑can‑eat. 
I never once thought about a hawk stopping by to dine on the birds I was feeding. 
Thank goodness the tiny birds had enough gumption to fly off fast.

Native American signs and lore mean a lot to me. 
My grandfather used to say his mother from Illinois was biracial, part white and part Native American. 
In some Native American lore, hawks carry prayers to heaven and bring wisdom back. 
Maybe he’s a good sign with my doctor appointment coming up.

Other than that bit of excitement, there really wasn’t much to write about today. 
Cowboy went to both morning and evening services, then spent the rest of the day asleep in his recliner. 
Badger stayed in her room. 
I tried to play on the computer but ended up reading instead. 
Thankfully, I already had a book downloaded because the Internet was spotty all day. 
Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn’t, which made watching TV or playing an online game nearly impossible.

Heron thought the lines might have frozen over the river. 
Our electric and internet lines stretch across the river, and in some spots they sag low enough to look like they’re touching the water.

I don’t have much else to write.
 I’m still a little freaked out about tomorrow’s doctor appointment. 
I hate those lady bits appointments. 
You never know what might turn up, especially when there’s no family history to go on. 
I’ve already decided I’m not scheduling another one in December. 
Next time we’ll go back to September or October, when the weather is warm and the holidays aren’t ruined by my worrying. 
Cowboy is concerned because the forecast says the temperature will drop into the single digits tonight, which could mean icy roads in the morning.

I’m going to bed now.